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SPORADIC
MTC STORIES
Cath
From Great Britain An MTC Fairy Story
By
Cath, 2007
I think that
my story is well worth telling and I am sure that it will encourage
all newly diagnosed (especially the young folks) to be more hopeful.
I was diagnosed
when I was 45. I am now 64!
At the time
of my diagnosis, the tumor was well out of the thyroid. I was
told that its size suggested that it had probably been growing
undetected for about 20 years. This means that I have lived with
this for about 39 years. Pretty good, eh?
I have had
4 operations on my neck. Apart from damage to one of my vocal
cords and some other nerves to my arms I feel O.K. Oh, I feel
shaky at times, though that may simply be part of my normal aging
process. I occasionally have bouts of diarrhea, which have not
bothered me too much (and this is only in the last 6 months or
so).
I have also
had breast cancer, diagnosed 4 years ago. For quite a while it
was thought that the breast cancer drug Tamoxifen was also helping
with the MTC (my calcitonin level was decreasing over a couple
of years). However, this now is not thought to be the case, and
my calcitonin is starting to increase again. My last CT scan has
revealed three small nodules in my lungs. So in all these years
it seems that they are the only distant metastases of the original
MTC.
I have done
lots of positive visualization over many years, and this makes
me feel very good in myself. It may have a therapeutic benefit
as well, but it certainly cannot do any harm.
So, to all
you younger and newly diagnosed folks, remember that in most cases,
this cancer grows very slowly.
I have been
most impressed by the e-mail from young women, starting families
or simply getting on with there lives and not letting it get in
the way too much. This is really great. You shouldnt put
your life on hold because one day when you are an old dame you
will maybe think, Oh I do wish that I had children.
I am sure
that a cure is on the horizon, and, if not a cure, then a way
of managing it, like any chronic illness (diabetes, for example)
I believe there is EVERY REASON TO BE POSITIVE.
So when you
are a bit down, think of me.
Once Upon
A Time, a most beautiful young woman, alas not a maiden, was diagnosed
with MTC. Her name was Cath; she was sporadic
So, Cath,
Diagnosed long ago
Had MTC long before that
Lived happily ever after,
(Of course
a handsome prince would be nice, but in the meantime, the old
man will have to suffice)
All the very
best to you,
Cath
P.S.: My hubby
has just accused me of only getting shaky when there is housework
to do!
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Rachels
Story - Forget the Trach, Just Peel it Away
By Rachel A., 2007
In the fall/winter
of 1994, when I was 27, I went to my family doctor for a general
checkup. I had begun putting on weight fairly rapidly since the
birth of my son in 1992.
As part of
the routine exam, she felt my neck and asked if I knew I had a
lump there. I didnt. She thought it was probably an enlarged
thyroid, which could possibly account for the weight problem.
She ordered
the standard round of blood work
TSH, and a glucose test
since I had gestational diabetes when I was pregnant. We both
felt fairly certain that one or both would come back elevated
and that would be that. Both came back normal.
Since the
blood work was normal, she sent me to have an ultrasound done
to look at what the lump was. The ultrasound showed nodules, but
were undeterminable. So, this was followed by fine needle aspiration.
Those results came back abnormal but inconclusive.
By now, it
was March of 1995 and Id been messing around with this for
a few months. Little did I know what was looming in the distance.
Because what
it was, was still unknown, my doctor sent me to a surgeon to attempt
another needle biopsy. I met a wonderful surgeon, now retired.
We had a long talk about what might or might not be happening
with me.
He gave me
several scenarios and options. One of the options he mentioned
was to see if taking thyroid medicine would shrink the nodule.
I asked him whether, even if that worked, would there come a time
when the nodules would have to be removed. He said they would
probably eventually have to come out.
At that point
I made the decision to forgo the second needle biopsy and just
have the nodules removed. I figured if they would have to come
out eventually, why not just take them out now when I was young
enough to bounce back quickly from surgery. I shrugged it off
as a no-brainer. I am not a fan of surgery at all, but given the
option to do it sooner than later, I chose sooner. At this point,
I dont think anyone was really overly concerned about what
they would find.
The surgeon
performed a thyroidectomy. When I woke from surgery, he then explained
that it was cancer and the tumor had begun to invade my windpipe.
It also had trapped the nerve to my vocal cord, which had been
damaged during the surgery though he felt certain it would recover.
He told me he removed as much of the tumor from my windpipe as
he could, but he had to leave some of it to avoid potential complications.
I still didnt
know it was Medullary Thyroid Cancer. I knew I had cancer (ugly,
ugly word), but didnt know more beyond that at this point.
He told me he sent samples to the lab and would let me know the
results at my follow-up in a few days.
I had a follow-up
with the surgeon a few days later, so I decided to do some research
to find out more about this cancer he said I had. That was when
I learned there were 4 types
two very common ones (Papillary
and Follicular), one that wasnt so great (Medullary), and
one that was horrible (Anaplastic). Because of the statistics,
I was fairly convinced it was either Papillary or Follicular cancer.
My family had lots of history of cancer, but none were thyroid.
After reading
about the cancers and their treatments, while I wasnt thrilled,
I thought
ok
this wont be TOO bad. Ill
deal with it and move on. Right? Imagine my shock when the doctor
told me it was MTC. Because I had already done some research,
I knew things were as great as I had hoped they would be (all
things considered).
Now begins
the debate
what to do. My surgeon was the only one in town
who had any experience with MTC and that was minimal at best.
More surgery? Radiation? Wait? I didnt realize how complicated
this whole thing was going to get.
I was fortunate
to live close to a center with a medullary thyroid cancer specialist
so I was sent there for an evaluation. They did the genetic testing,
which at the time was still in the trial stage. Luckily, the results
came back sporadic. My CEA was around 12 and my calcitonin was
about 13,000 (we didnt have pre-surgical numbers since we
didnt know what we were dealing with). We knew, at minimum,
tumor was still attached to my windpipe.
I have to
admit
I was scared out of my mind. While in the waiting
room to see the specialist, I began talking to another patient.
Her name was Linda and she was from Georgia. She was routinely
coming up to see the specialist for treatment, etc. She also had
MTC. She had initially been mis-diagnosed and by the time she
was properly diagnosed, the cancer had spread to her lymph nodes,
bones, and liver, and it was pretty extensive. But what shocked
me was the fact that she was already about 8 years into everything.
She was a
wonderful blessing in disguise for me. I remember thinking
ok, so maybe things for me arent so bad. I have a small
tumor still on my windpipe, but we thought that was probably all.
And if Linda could go THAT long with it having spread so far and
wide, maybe Ill be ok. We exchanged numbers and addresses
and I felt much better after I left that day. Still freaking out
a little, but realizing I wasnt dead yet.
After multiple
consults with surgeons, oncologists, and endocrinologists, as
well as CT scans, MRI, Octreotide scans (none of which really
helped decide anything), I decided on additional surgery to remove
lymph nodes and explore a little more. My surgeon went back in,
6 months after the original surgery, and took out about 30 lymph
nodes of which about half tested positive. Up to this point, there
was much concern about the remaining tumor on my windpipe. Some
of the surgeons who were consulted felt we should do a tracheal
resection and cut out the part involved. The risk was they might
have to cut away too much, which would leave me with a permanent
trach tube. Not a pleasant thought for me at age 28 (yes, vanity
is still alive).
When I woke
from surgery, my surgeon told me he had to do more extensive surgery.
He was quite surprised to tell me that the tumor appeared to peel
away clean from my windpipe. He was certain it would have been
worse than it was 6 months ago. He couldnt explain it, and
I dont try to. Prayer, karma, angels
I dont
know. Whatever it was, I wasnt complaining.
After the
second surgery, my calcitonin dropped to around 2,000 and my CEA
was around 9. Better, but still not great. Despite the odds stacked
against me, we decided to treat with external beam radiation because
all the scans that were done, did not detect any sizable tumors
anywhere else.
So, after
4 months of healing (February of 96), I began 6 weeks of
radiation (30 treatments). I have to admit that was a very odd
experience. It really didnt even start to hurt for about
3 weeks. I felt like I had a very very bad sore throat. I lost
the hair at the base of my neck where the radiation hit, and had
a sunburn on my neck.
Honestly,
for me, the worst was the loss of my voice. Because of the damage
to the nerve on my vocal cord, then the radiation, I lost my voice
for over a year. That was hard to work around.
But, other
than the two surgeries themselves, I didnt miss any work.
I know there has been a lot of debate about external radiation,
but I dont regret it for a minute. We tracked my CEA and
calcitonin for a year following radiation. By the end of that
year, my CEA was 2 (NORMAL!!) and my calcitonin dropped to 250.
We knew it would never be normal, but it was pretty
darn close and I was thrilled.
That was 11
years ago. As of a few months ago, my CEA is 3.7 (a little elevated)
and my calcitonin is 175 (yep
down even lower than a year
after radiation).
I still worry
sometimes, when I have lingering aches and pains that dont
have a logical explanation. I still get weird when its time
for my blood work, until the results come back.
But I also
think back, 12 years ago when this journey started, I was told
by my oncologist I had a 40% chance of surviving 10 years. I turn
40 this year and, quite frankly, I think its wonderful.
I love the fact that I have defied the odds.
Yes, I have
cancer. The clinical facts can scare the daylights out of you,
but the one that I continued to focus on was this
It is
a slow growing cancer. Many people can live very long and normal
lives, even with known tumors in them. It has a history of going
to the liver. Ok, thats not great. BUT, the liver is one
of those wonderful organs where they can take part of it away
with the tumor and youre still OK. How cool is that!?!
If I were
to offer any advice to the newly diagnosed, it would be this.
Allow yourself to freak out. Allow yourself to be scared. Its
ok, its normal.
BUT
Allow yourself to live, too. Not long after my diagnosis, while
sitting in the waiting room to see my oncologist, I was reading
Readers Digest and saw a quote that I thought was quite
poignant for me. It said, Being defeated can be a temporary
situation, giving up makes it permanent. I realized then,
I had choices to make and I had to choose to not give up.
I am very
fortunate to have a wonderful circle of friends and family who
helped me keep my sense of humor, not let me feel too sorry for
myself, and pick me up on the days I just couldnt do it
alone.
No one is
alone in this journey. Just ask
youll be glad you
did.
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Liz
From Maine - God Moments
By Liz, 2007
Hello, all,
I am a 55-year-old
woman from outside Bangor, Maine, with the world's best husband,
two great sons (grown), two light-of-my-life grandchildren, sisters
who are my best friends, and many close friends. I owe any success
that I have had in fighting this disease to those who love and
support me.
My MTC story
begins in August 2002, when I discovered a lump on the left side
of my neck. At the time I was a cath lab nurse, and my left side
faced the source of radiation.
I went immediately
to my GP, who sent me straight to a surgeon. He did a thyroidectomy
and removed several nodes from my neck. Meanwhile, I had been
researching thyroid cancer and hoped I would be lucky enough to
have the primary type, and surgery would be the end of it.
Well, you
all can guess how the biopsies turned out. The surgeon still felt
very optimistic that he had removed it all; he ordered a neck
and chest CT.
The worst
day we have had since I found this lump was when the surgeon called
my husband and me to his office to discuss my CT results. Things
looked very bad, at least to my doctors in Maine. There were tumors
in my neck, many enlarged nodes in the chest wall, tumor in both
lungs, and two adrenal tumors. He told me to "get my affairs
in order," and that I probably had less than a year to live.
He said there was no treatment available for MTC that has spread
beyond the thyroid.
My husband
and I both broke down, of course, and I don't know how he got
me out of that office, past all those people, and into the car.
It was a nightmare, and I know many of you will understand just
what we went through. As a nurse, I have been at the bedsides
of patients receiving terrible news. I thought I know what they
were going through, but until it happens to you, you really can't
understand it.
Another horrible
task is sharing this news with those who love us. The hardest
thing I've had to do in my life was to tell my sons about this
cancer. I still find myself "sugar-coating" the news
I give to them. Somehow, in the few days after my diagnosis, I
found an inner strength that has been with me since then. I didn't
feel one bit like I was dying, so I decided I was going to live!
And to live as fully as I could, with a lot of help from family
and friends (insert "Rocky" music here).
Please indulge
me while I share the first of my "God moments." I decided
to wait to share this news with my friends at work, at least until
I could discuss it without becoming a puddle. The last thing I
wanted to do was break down at work.
A group of
my best friends called my bluff. They knew something was wrong
and asked me to share, so puddle and all, I did. One of my favorite
cardiologists was there and asked my permission to look into my
diagnosis. He later returned with an appointment at Head and Neck
Oncology at a major specialized center in another state. When
he handed me the appointment, I felt a huge sense of hope and
relief. I had not been a spiritual person, but since then, I have
had many moments like this, when God kind of bonks me on the head
and says, "Pay attention to this! This is My work."
And I am slowly learning to do just that.
My first meeting
with doctors at the major center in September 2002 clarified the
truth about my disease. I was not going to die tomorrow, and I
may well live for many happy years. Imagine THIS scene, leaving
that clinic crying and laughing, kissing and hugging. We immediately
took a wrong turn that left us lost in the city for over an hour,
still overjoyed and acting like fools.
Radiologists
later took a close look at their CTs and thought there was something
odd about my chest tumors. I had biopsies and they showed sarcoidosis.
This probably accounts for much of my chest-wall disease. The
adrenal tumors haven't changed a bit in five years, and are thought
to be benign and unrelated to MTC.
Around this
time, I found the MTC e-mail group, and have gained much knowledge
and hope from it. I am so grateful for you guys!
So things
were not as dire as originally predicted by my original doctors,
but I have had to accept that I have advanced cancer that will
kill me someday if no cure is found. I am very encouraged by the
new treatments that are available, though, and am very optimistic
that a cure will be found in time.
In December
2002 I had radiation to my neck, and I sure wish I hadn't. It
is unlikely that it did anything to slow the course of the disease
and has led to some serious problems. I now have pulmonary fibrosis,
and, coupled with sarcoidosis, I have significant shortness of
breath. And I had a small stroke in February of this year. CT
and MRI of the head showed disease in only one small artery, and
this was felt to have been damaged by radiation. Of course, I
can't say that radiation may not be an effective treatment for
others with MTC, but I want to honestly relate my experiences
with it.
My cancer
has very slowly grown to include liver mets, as well as many tiny
tumors in both lungs. There is no evidence of bone mets. Calcitonin
has averaged around 15,000, but been as high as 30,000. CEA runs
250- 350. I was in one clinical trial from August 2005 to September
2006. My calcitonin and CEA were at their lowest: <10,000,
and <200 respectively, and tumors were shrinking. Unfortunately,
I had many nasty side effects and stopped the drug when it became
toxic and destroyed my gall bladder. I felt absolutely awful when
I was on that drug.
I am now in
another clinical trial. I'm sure I'm on the placebo, however,
and I hope to be on the "real thing" soon. Since my
radiation mistake, I try to be very careful to make the correct
medical choices for myself. Judith Orloff has a book, "Positive
Energy," and she advises us to "seek the white light"
in our treatment options, and in those who treat us. I try hard
to do just this.
Another great
thing I have read is an essay called "Cancer Brings Gifts."
When I first read it, I wasn't ready for its wisdom, and invited
cancer to share its gifts with SOMEBODY ELSE! But, it is true.
I have learned
to treasure the gift of my life, and stop frequently to give thanks
for it. I have also learned that there are people who love me
and want me to stick around. That's a really nice thing to know.
Cancer encourages them to show this love and I bask in it as often
as possible. My life is deeper and more meaningful than ever,
and I try to live it to the fullest.
I'd like to
share one other bit of wisdom that has brought me comfort. My
cousin's wife waited many years (since childhood) for a kidney.
She finally got one that worked after many disappointments and
one failed transplant. Before her successful transplant, I asked
her, "Sharon, how do you stay so strong?" She said,
"I allow myself 24 hours to bitch and moan over bad news.
Not one minute more. Life may turn out to be too short for me,
and I don't want to waste it in bed crying." I have tried
very hard to uphold the "Sharon Tradition" when I get
news that is bad.
All in all,
I feel quite well. My worst symptom is shortness of breath, and
that is secondary to sarcoid and fibrosis. I don't think I have
any symptoms that are related to MTC. My most recent CTs have
changed little from the original one five years ago. I am lucky
that my disease moves so slowly. I have probably had MTC for a
very long time.
But, I bet
all of you can relate to this: wouldn't it be wonderful to someday
say, "I used to have medullary thyroid cancer, but now I
am cured."
Thanks for
listening, and I look forward to reading all your stories.
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Anita
From North Carolina - A Pappie to Meddie Story
By Anita, 2007
My husband
and I were preparing to celebrate our forty-third wedding anniversary
in 2004. The day before we left I was to receive my thyroid biopsy
report. I had had all the tests/scans the year before and there
were no problems so I was not concerned. Although I felt like
something had grown (my nodule), it still was not a concern. I
was retiring at the end of the school year and everything was
falling into place.
WHAM! My biopsy
was papillary cancer. I was told that this was very simple to
eliminate with surgery and radiation.
Surgery was
set for the day before Labor Day. I would be out three weeks and
should not have any complications. The hardest part was telling
my children who lived ten hours away. They were very supportive
and had questions for the doctor who was accessible and answered
all questions promptly.
Before surgery
I was very open with the faculty, family, and friends. I even
have a support group, which I update with each doctor visit. This
proved to be very important in follow up visits. Reading their
encouragement notes has helped tremendously. I worked the day
before surgery. My class was stunned that I would be gone for
three weeks, but survived.
My surgery
went well and they were able to remove my whole thyroid. I could
talk, but felt woozy. The next morning I still didnt feel
great. After another IV, which I failed to question, I went home
with strict instructions about numbness around my mouth.
Sunday was
a normal day, but Monday I woke to numbness around my mouth. A
call to the doctor and a trip to the emergency room found me back
in the hospital with calcium deficiency.
Two days later
I was home again with my body producing calcium. I progressed
quickly although my voice was very weak and I had no pitch. I
returned to teaching using a mike and amplifier. I ordered a Chatter
Vox and this was a definite asset.
The trip back
to the doctor for my follow up was a shock. My biopsy was wrong,
as I had Medullary Thyroid Cancer. A calcitonin test showed it
was 700. A CT scan showed no tumors, but it did show an adrenal
adenoma. A reference to another doctor an hour and a half away
was made, and he ordered more tests. My calcitonin was up to 1,000
and all my other tests were normal.
I was told
I was sporadic and my options were to have a neck dissection or
a second opinion. I was not opposed to surgery, but the doctor
wanted me to have a second opinion.
Off to another
surgeon three hours away. He ran his own tests where my calcitonin
was now 1,092. He scheduled a liver biopsy which was positive
in one node. I have had several PT scans, MRI, and CT scans, but
no tumors show on any of these. Because of changes in the way
the calcitonin is read my number is now close to 600. My CEA has
gone up from 84 to 115. I feel very fortunate that this is not
high and I am able to live a normal life.
I did have
some trying moments and did a great deal of research. I also had
an excellent support group. I dont think about it as often
as there is too much living to do and no time to worry about things
I cant control. Maybe a drug on a clinical trial will be
on the market before my tumors get large enough to show on scans.
There is hope.
People have lived for forty years. In forty years I will be over
100!
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My
MTC Story
By Kathryn B. W., 2007
I was diagnosed
with sporadic medullary thyroid cancer in 1999. My physicians
assistant found a small lump during an appointment when I had
strep throat.
I had a complete
thyroidectomy and it was determined to be medullary after that
initial surgery. My first calcitonin test came back at 4,000 with
normal being a 4. My local surgeon thought that must be a lab
error, but the 2nd test came back at 4,100. I needed more surgery
and went on the Internet for more information.
I found the
medullary e-mail support group, which had been founded earlier
that year. Through the contacts I made, I found out about a surgeon
in another state who specializes in MTC. When I questioned my
local surgeon about CEA, and he told me not to believe what I
read on the Internet, I chose to have further treatment by someone
with MTC experience.
The specialist
did my neck dissection about six months later. He wanted the scar
tissue to heal before he reopened that area. (This was about the
longest six months of my life.) A laparoscopic liver biopsy was
done, but no MTC was found. I had about 30 nodes removed from
my neck. Six were positive. My calcitonin following the surgery
dropped dramatically, but did not go back to normal.
In the seven
years that have followed, my calcitonin has slowly gone up, but
at last check, was still less than 100 pg/mL. Im thrilled
that it has stayed low, but admit that I worry a lot about will
it come back and hate the annual calcitonin test.
While my cancer
seems to be in check, I have had a much more difficult time regulating
my TSH levels. My TSH was an all-time high of 36 following my
neck dissection, followed by a period where it fluctuated down
to 0.10 then back up to 4.5, like a ping pong ball! I had a lot
of physical symptoms, weight gain, muscle aches, dry skin, but
the worst was my emotional state of mind. The TSH fluctuations
sent me way over the deep end into anxiety and depression. It
took some time to feel like myself again. Even seven years later,
I still have a hard time keeping my levels steady, but I'm getting
more disciplined about taking my pills on a schedule.
In 2002, I
had a healthy pregnancy and birth of our third daughter. Medullary
really didnt make a difference in being pregnant. My TSH
went out of whack again, but it was in the normal range after
several medicine increases. I was able to breastfeed her and she
was a healthy baby.
In 2005, I
became a co-facilitator for ThyCa Raleigh, a local support group
for thyroid cancer survivors. It has been a wonderful experience
to meet so many incredible people who have been touched by thyroid
cancer. Ive learned a lot about RAI, and thyroglobulin and
all the other jargon that goes with papillary and follicular,
the more common types of thyroid cancer. Ive found that
our treatments may be a bit different after the thyroidectomy,
but our experiences are very similar in terms of everyday living
with thyroid cancer. It has been a most meaningful and satisfying
experience for me.
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